Happy New Year

New years was very quiet and calm for us this year. We rented movies and drank by ourselves. We stood up watching the Dick Clark special (wobbling corpse!) and when the new year rang in we just gave our hugs to each other and the kids and called it a night. Every new year I have this fear of the world ending. I guess since I was small I was tramatized into thinking that every new year God might come and end it all for us. I really thought that for 2000 and was so scared the whole day.

This tuesday I started Winter Session at school (chemistry) and so far its kind of hard but I have a year to go of it! :( But today I really messed up and didn't go to class. I woke up late and got to school at around 8:15 (class starts @8) and there was noooooooo more parking! I was panicking cause I had a test today and I was so mad at myself I wanted to cry. Winter session is a short 5 weeks but I have to go from 8-2:20pm M-Th. It sucked that I missed today, I felt like a loser all day and I kept kicking myself for it. I'm still not totally over it cause I know I messed up and especially that if I miss another day I can get kicked out. So from now on its making sure that I wake up on time and that I get my big ass to school everyday. I have 4 more weeks to go! I can do this! I'm just not use to waking up early again. I was sleeping in for the week that I was off of school and now its hard for me to wake up! And on the weekends I sleep in then come Monday and its sooooo hard for me to get up and function right. The inlaws aren't back from Mexico yet so no breakfast for me. Usually my MIL makes me breakfast and I'm always set in the morning. Now that she's not here I need her here to help me with the kids! My mom was watching the kids this week. I can't wait till I get that extra help back.

Also I might go to USC's P.A. program instead of the other college I was going to go to. USC is way more expensive but I'll have the label of being a USC student that will help me in the long run and help my salary as well. I'm still not sure if I should go for it. It's so hard to make a decision and its mostly because of the money issue. I know they'll help me BUT to a limit. There's no such thing as a free ride. Well actually I'm having one now living with Naty and him supporting me but hopefully not for long cause I hate having to depend on someone! I can't wait to have my own money and buy what I want, when I want!

Anyway, gotta go get these kids in bed. Peace out