MySpace

I found so many of my old friends on there and it feels like I'm back in high school. I can't believe how time flies by and how everyone is grown up now. Not many of them have kids and have graduated from college...That makes me want it more. I can't give up! I want to finish what I started for sure!

I'm home alone again, Naty's doing a side job today and I can't wait till he gets home. I'm not cooking today cause I just don't feel like it or don't feel good either. These kids are so crazy and the house is so tore up! Toys everywhere!!! I almost stepped on one and killed myself.

Countdown is about to start after this week. I go back to school on Feb. 6th, I guess it's good since I'll be back on track and closer to my goals.

anyway, I better do something with this tornado. Bye
marlene

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Break Time

I was taking a class for winter session and decided to take some time off since I haven't in 2 years! So I ended up dropping the class in hopes to relax........WRONG! Now I'm feeling like a total loser being home and I feel like I'm doing something bad. I go back for spring session in Feb. and hopefully I'll be back on track. I just feel when I stay home that I'm not accomplishing nothing and start thinking all kinds of crazy thoughts. I'm hoping to do good this semester cause I got two C's for Fall and I need to fight one of them cause I deserved an A in one class, at least a B! But not a C!!!!!! I was so pist so now I've gotta go fight with my teacher and if she doesn't change it I'm gonna take it up with the dean and petition it. Thats a crazy ass grade!! For A's on all my papers and to come out with a C??? Makes noooooooooo sense!

In Feb. everyone supposed to go to Laughlin, I've never been there and I'm scared to lose my ass. I'm only gonna gamble about 100, I swear! I'm such a tight ass! I know I did a lot more in vegas but I don't want to chance it again. I honestly don't even know why I'm going!! I think I'm gonna look it up and see what other things I can do there instead of only gambling. I'm clueless when it comes to that place.

Oh and Audrey is finally off the baba!! I'm so happy, I thought this day would never come cause she was so addicted to it. I mean especially to go to sleep. Did I suffer in her first days! Oh and she's a cry baby now. she never really cared and just chilled but she's been acting like a spoiled brat lately and doing lots of crazy things! Her terrible two's have come in full force! So I guess now that I'm taking a vacation I can catch up on other things around the house. Anyway, gotta go cut the grass.
marlene

Happy New Year

New years was very quiet and calm for us this year. We rented movies and drank by ourselves. We stood up watching the Dick Clark special (wobbling corpse!) and when the new year rang in we just gave our hugs to each other and the kids and called it a night. Every new year I have this fear of the world ending. I guess since I was small I was tramatized into thinking that every new year God might come and end it all for us. I really thought that for 2000 and was so scared the whole day.

This tuesday I started Winter Session at school (chemistry) and so far its kind of hard but I have a year to go of it! :( But today I really messed up and didn't go to class. I woke up late and got to school at around 8:15 (class starts @8) and there was noooooooo more parking! I was panicking cause I had a test today and I was so mad at myself I wanted to cry. Winter session is a short 5 weeks but I have to go from 8-2:20pm M-Th. It sucked that I missed today, I felt like a loser all day and I kept kicking myself for it. I'm still not totally over it cause I know I messed up and especially that if I miss another day I can get kicked out. So from now on its making sure that I wake up on time and that I get my big ass to school everyday. I have 4 more weeks to go! I can do this! I'm just not use to waking up early again. I was sleeping in for the week that I was off of school and now its hard for me to wake up! And on the weekends I sleep in then come Monday and its sooooo hard for me to get up and function right. The inlaws aren't back from Mexico yet so no breakfast for me. Usually my MIL makes me breakfast and I'm always set in the morning. Now that she's not here I need her here to help me with the kids! My mom was watching the kids this week. I can't wait till I get that extra help back.

Also I might go to USC's P.A. program instead of the other college I was going to go to. USC is way more expensive but I'll have the label of being a USC student that will help me in the long run and help my salary as well. I'm still not sure if I should go for it. It's so hard to make a decision and its mostly because of the money issue. I know they'll help me BUT to a limit. There's no such thing as a free ride. Well actually I'm having one now living with Naty and him supporting me but hopefully not for long cause I hate having to depend on someone! I can't wait to have my own money and buy what I want, when I want!

Anyway, gotta go get these kids in bed. Peace out